refuge

today was me & my honeys 37th wedding anniversary. it was a very lovely, lazy, sweet day.

tonight i am sprawled out on the picnic table on the deck yet again jammin' with the stars. what is this thing that i want Lord, that seems to have somehow grown so elusive of late? its very simple, not complicated.....yet it is something that is absolutely not within my power to grasp hold of no matter how hard i try.

Lord i WANT TO be passionate about something, anything that YOU are passionate about. and i want to be SO PASSIONATE about it that i would GIVE MY LIFE for it.

simple, right? not complicated. yet when, or if, you, like me, come to the juncture in this earthly life and realize that you have laid down everything that YOU have ever been passionate about in single-minded pursuit of that which HE is passionate about.... and suddenly find yourself firmly yet passion-less-ly planted at His feet perhaps you will know of this helplessness of which i speak. He is the very essence of life and passion. my labors are fruitless and in vain and my vessel is emptied, my slate is clean.

so come, my Author and my Finisher, and let us write afresh and anew. i'm watching and waiting. that's all i can do. and that's absolutely true. so toodle loo. to you (dear blog...only to you) :}

p.s. saw a couple shooting stars tonight. cool.