by george i think i've got it!

yes! when it comes to my baking....ima do just what i like!  after all this time i think i've earned the right!  so there. 


today was great.  had brunch with all of my sisters and mama after we took her to her kidney dr. appt.  he gave her a clean bill of health from his perspective (kidney function unchanged, lungs seemed clear, no unusual heart sounds).  she is getting awfully slow these days, her eyesight is failing more and more, the summer heat is a killer for her, and she is getting over her chest congestion slowly but surely.   he always jokes that this is what comes from having too many birthdays; she said well then she is just going to stop having birthdays; he said he don't think that's such a great idea ;)

must make it a point for the sisters to get together on a regular basis....my oldest one needs it real bad, and made the request.  i told her i would see to it.

so, yeah, i think i just need to re-set my mind-set about my business.  it is no longer what it was, and i really don't want it to be. i really can do the things that make me happy.  i must discipline myself to do this....think differently.  think of it more as a creative hobby that i can profit somewhat from instead of putting so much pressure on myself to perform (as usual.  i am my own worst enemy.).  i will need to scale back some things in the kitchen to cut my overhead.  need to focus on what to do there. and if God closes the door i will not try to pry it open.  i will just let it be another chapter of my life in which i gave it all i had, and look forward to whatever He has planned ahead.

so yeah, i see a ray of hope breaking through.  God is good.  and i am blessed because of it.